Heavy Heart.

My heart is heavy.

And so when my heart is heavy, all I want to do is write. So here I am.

I'm not trying to cause any form of controversy or anything, I just want to say what I want to say. And where else to say it but on my own blog.

There was this awful shooting last night in Florence. A guy who just graduated with me from West Florence a few weeks ago was killed.

It's weird to know someone who was involved in something like this.

The young man who died? It's not him that I knew actually. I had heard of his name before, but I've never met him or been around him.

No, I know the young man who they just arrested for his murder.

Bet you didn't see that coming, did you?

I know this kid through EFM of all places. He's 17, the same age as me. He was kicked out of South for fighting, and sent to Rush. He did some community service hours as EFM.

He helped me countless times in my classroom, setting up tables and chairs, cleaning windows, taking out the trash. He always picked on me, or made jokes. He was there every Tuesday night, without fail.

And now he is being arrested for murder, among other things.

I have absolutely no idea what happened last night, before, during, or after that shooting.

I just never saw this coming.
I never expect to have someone I know, someone who I saw every week, be arrested.

I mourn for the family who lost their son. I hope he knew Jesus. I pray that his family will be drawn to Jesus, or closer to Jesus during this horrible tragedy.

But I pray for this other guy too.
I pray for his heart.

I am a person who wants to help everyone. I want to believe the best in every person.
And I know that this guy has a good side. He can play with children and be helpful and crack jokes.

So I pray, I pray earnestly, that Jesus would use this experience to bring him to the Lord.
I pray for his heart.

All I can think of is what else could I have done. What else could I have said? What could've changed his heart?

But there isn't anything. God uses these things to teach lessons.

All things work together for good. And so I just put my trust in Him.

Please pray for that family. But also pray for this guy. Who I know. Who I was around every week. Pray for his heart.

My heart is heavy, and I lean on Jesus.

Your purpose God, not my plans.

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